Well at last I'm starting to get into a routine after starting work a couple of months ago. I've been feeling a little bit out of control the last few months trying to keep the house tidy, keeping Ashleigh on track with school (ie. doing her homework and reading etc) and turning up to work on time!

I found it quite difficult in the beginning trying to balance home and work life but I'm slowly figuring out a routine (with the help of Aaron of course). We have typed up a schedule for Ashleigh and I have to write EVERYTHING down otherwise I forget appointments and dates.

Sorry to everyone out there who's birthday's I've missed the last couple of months - I have no real excuse except for being exhausted and not enough brain space left!!

I have felt incredible guilt the last few weeks - am I being a good enough mother, wife, neighbour, friend and worker?? I forget to make sure Ashleigh has her glasses at least one day a week, I have forgotten her "news time" twice now - I have visions of her getting up in front of her class with nothing to say and that tears me apart. I have forgotten about 3 doctors/specialists appointments, and so much more! Am I trying to do too much or am I just a scatter brain?

I feel guilty mostly about not being a good enough mother - especially to Ashleigh. It's her first year at school and I just haven't given her the attention she needs because I'm so exhausted at the end of the day or I'm thinking about stuff I need to do for work and shrug her off. I guess it's just going to take time to figure out the balance.

I'll leave you all on a more positive note with pictures of Lauren - check out those curls!!

Let's hope the wind doesn't change!